Premonitions of my 8 yr old self

     It's been just 2 years since I realized that I think quite more than a normal person. Obviously, 2 years are not enough to cover for 20 years. It has been found out that when babies are born, their brains are about one quarter developed. So, I have been thinking from the point when I wasn't even born! :o :s Scary thought. I wonder though, interesting is the thought of being able to remember the state of brain from so long back. I was lost and gradually drifting to sleep when the chain of thoughts began.

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It hurts me to see you every day

for I cannot touch you in any way

the more you care the more I expect

among friendship and love I don't know which to select

All hope vanished and I became lost

you were always there no matter what it cost

you gave me strength you became my hope

all was fine until it reached the end of the rope

you said 'that's it' you could do more than this

my life turned hell and all left was abyss

and now we can never be normal together

for you are my first love, always and forever




I am not sure about the title, any suggestions?

Lost love

She hides her tears behind her smile
but I sense everything as she once was mine
she behaves as if love between us was a crime
she refused to listen as for me it was divine

We are so close yet so worlds apart
she was everything to me, sweet, silly & smart
though she says it was not love from the start
she always has been & forever be in my heart

And now it's as if we were never together
my friends say it's certainly for the better
they are right but they will understand never
I love you _______, always n forever <3

The first kiss

There was something in those eyes,that I'll never forget
cause I fell in love, the day we met

You wondered why someone like me would ask you for a dance
but I knew for sure, you wouldn't miss such a chance

We waltzed to our hearts through the night
I could feel your excitement, when you held so tight

The music stopped and it was the end of the show
but I could see it in your eyes, you didn't want to go

I walked you to your home and it was time to say goodbye
you looked at me, ever so shy

I read your moves and came close too
I had always wished to get my first kiss from you <3


Before you say anything, it's completely fictional

Having slept already

     It's 0055 hrs and I suddenly wake up. Honestly, I shouldn't be waking up at this odd hour. Then I remember, I have slept all evening and also through the night. Oh man, now I have to stay awake the whole night. First of all, I am hungry (Good! my appetite's back :D). I wonder, should I brush my teeth first? :P There's not much to satisfy my hunger but still I'll survive for the next few hours. Better close the door to my room before turning the computer on.

It's definitely not love

    I have been neglecting food for quite a time now. I do feel hungry and my stomach has been growling a lot these days. But, every time my brain gets a signal from stomach there is one or other thought in my head that is so important, that I don't even have the restraint to stop it and get something to eat. You know me, when I start thinking, I get totally engrossed in anything that's interesting to ponder on. Studies, passion, fun, love nothing matters then. Talking about love, why is that whenever I deny food or look thoughtful, somebody would pull me back to reality asking the then most insignificant question "ladki kya chakkar hai kya?" (is it a matter of a girl?).

Thinking Loud Is Not Allowed

     Well, frankly, I think I am an idiot. After "voices inside my head" there's hardly any hope for any of them to still like me. Call me ignorant, arrogant or whatever, I did the thing that they themselves asked for. So I can't fully blame myself. The good part is that two of them know about it, rest of them are still unaware. Now I think I shouldn't have deleted that note. Well, I will definitely tell them  know someday. I am not sure which day. After talking with C, I felt much better and less guilty.

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"I see you like to edit, maybe you should edit 'my pic'!"

The editor spoke nothing for his canvas was full, then he refreshed, and then he spoke, "enough talk, let's edit!" *Shashabooey!*

Voices Inside My Head

      I am often surprised by the track on which the train of my thoughts run on. Changing tracks continuously, rarely arriving at a junction. I think too much, more than a normal person, trying to decipher the meaning behind every word spoken in front of me. But, I am no Sherlock Holmes. Yet, my brain never stops the thinking process, giving me the "LOST" look when I am with friends.

Is it just a formality?

     Think about the title. Since it's friendship day, I am surely talking in the same context. Sure today is very special for friends. You get a chance to tell people how much they mean to you, as friends. You make promises of being friends forever, of remembering each other no matter how many miles apart you are. All this makes you feel special when somebody sends you a text, tags you in a photo on Facebook or just says "happy friendship day" when they see you this day. But ask yourself, is it really a feeling you share "together forever no matter how long" or is just a formality "hey remember me, so when the next time I need a favour, I'll remember you".

think fast, speak slow

       Although I am putting it into words today, the thought originally came to me on 2nd of August. I never expected my laziness to influence my writing. Something must be done about it. Before that, there is another problem to be tackled. This problem has survived since long back. I am starting to fear it won't leave me ever. Given, that is can prove disastrous for my career, I must find a solution for this as soon as possible You might be wondering if this problem is as old as I say it is, why am I writing about it today? The answers begins with an incident that happened today (2nd August). I have this problem of speaking too fast. Sometimes I have to repeat as much as 3 times to communicate my thoughts. Sometimes I eat up parts of words as I pronounce or even stammer.