You Just Had To Come Back In My life, Didn't You?

     I really wanted to post about something else. But, I think when one has started something, he/she should see to it till the end. Few seconds you'll have to wait while I go through my previous post and find out where we are so far.

just some random pic from hard disk and edited it

     Continued from here




     So, my cell phone network went dead for two solid weeks. Honestly, those were the best days of my life. No calls, no messages, no promises and life was looking so beautiful. Try doing it. Just switch off your cell phone for a day or two. Take no calls, don't exchange any messages, stop living for others and take out some time for yourself :D. The feeling was of out of this world.

And then, I received a message on Facebook

    They say people learn from their mistakes. So, what did I learn? Only to commit the same mistake in a much better way. Although I was reluctant to reply, I did (mistake number 1). You made me read a note you had dedicated to your friends and I let that soften my heart a bit (mistake number 2). You wanted everything back to normal. And after discussing about it for a long hour, I gave in (mistake number 3). You said nothing would go wrong from then on, that you would help in clearing the problems I had with others, that you would never change. And I believed you (mistake number 4 and the biggest of all). Yes everything did become normal, at least for a while. 

    I think after deciding to end any kind of relationship, people should not see each other (but that's just my thinking. And this wasn't a relationship to start with). All the feelings that were deep down within me had been revived. I knew I was going to get hurt again, yet I didn't stop. And to add to the pain, I did all kinds of stupid things to grab any opportunity of being with you (why am I smiling?). I wonder if you noticed that I was trying to get close to you. 

     I used to go for web programming classes in the evening. Now there are two centers for that but for this class, only one center was operational. There were many ways to go there, of which two were prominent ones. I always took the other one because your home came in the way. The 1st one, was shorter than this one and also warmer (it was December, and you know how things get when you travel a road flanked by trees on both sides...brrrr :s). But just to get a glimpse of you I would travel the longer path and fight the cold wind. Addiction? Obsession? The four letter word starting with L and ending with E? I don't know what it was. 

     And YOU! You could have made all the difference. Why didn't you do anything? You could have said you hated me, didn't want to talk to me, didn't want this friendship at all. Instead, you cared, you listened everything I had to say, you missed me, you never said no. The line you used to say but not anymore "tu hi toh mera dost hai". It would send electric shocks through my body. Why did you always insist on me accompanying others to see you off at the railway station? Such small things, they started creating big problems. And in the process I came to know why you won't commit, why you broke up with him and why friendship matters to you so much. But that didn't stop me from loving you. Nothing ever did and nothing ever will. On 28th December, you left for your treatment and I thought maybe the new year will bring something good. I was so wrong......

To Be Continued...

P.S.

1. Not every story has a happy ending.

2. There are still some "stupid" acts left to tell about. But being aware of the fact that you are reading this, I think I'll hold on to them for a while.

3. Stay Blessed ^_^