I hate it when my friends spend money on expensive things and I can't. I hate it when they eat outside at every opportunity they get. I hate it when they just drain the money in beer, burn it over cigarette and then say "yaar kadki chal rahi hai". Personally, I don't know whether I would be any different if I had that much wealth, so I can't blame them. But that doesn't stop me from thinking about it. I have all the money to eat and party everyday. I just don't have enough for applying for courses. The look on my parents' face when I ask them to pay fees for different courses that I wanna apply, totally breaks my heart. 1500 a month was more than enough. 1300 barely does the job. Still I can cut the enjoyment and bring that down to 1150. Most of my dreams now comprise of winning lotteries. Man, I would pay fees for all my classes, pay my landline-internet bill (since I am the only one using it), buy 5 tankers of petrol before government decides to raise petrol prices further.
Regret it written all over my face then I look in the mirror. If only I had studies more and landed in NIT/IIT, at least my dad won't have to pay almost 6 lakhs for my education( these private colleges, demand so high fees and don't even guarantee placement) Maybe I should start working part time. Flash, Photoshop, Maya, Aftereffects, C#, Embedded systems, ASP.NET, French, German, Gym. There is so much to do so much more to spend. there was a time when selling body parts for money was a very tempting idea (blame the movies for that). Love, friendship, happiness, joy, there is a cost for everything. Believe it or not, everything has to be bought these days. The most I can do is say no to eating outside, cigarette, beer and save money on notebooks.